Couple of Things....

You know how I said I wanted to move to Pocatello? Well I still do. I now know why. Yesterday I was grabbing my wallet from the house so that I could go to Taco Bell with my lab pattern while we waited for the lab to start. I notice the RV outside the house (I noticed it before I left but I just assumed he was cleaning it (they do that sometimes). He (my lab partner) asked about it and I told him that. After going to Taco Bell we went back to the school. My uncle was walking up the steps to his vehicle when we passed and I asked him about the RV. Apparently they were going to Wendover this weekend and I had no idea. I didn't want to go but still. This happens a lot. They last thing they told me about as far as an event goes was Disney on Ice and that was only because they asked me to go. If I weren't going, I am sure they would not have told me that either. Why am I mad about this? Because I live here and I am family. I feel like I should know what is going on; at least a little bit. This only adds to the feeling of me not being included at all and making me feel like a live in a one room apartment with no lock and my neighbors have the rest of the house. All I do is go to school, work, and do my homework in my room. Now that I have less hours (went from 30 hours to about 10ish in one week), I have some free time to do whatever and I don't even feel welcome anywhere else so I stay in my room. So here I am alone the whole weekend. I have nothing to do but play games. That is what I did for almost 12 hours straight yesterday. (5 PM to about 3 AM ish...) Don't get my wrong, I enjoy it. I would rather be spending it with other people (I have decided I am a very social person for some weird reason even though new people make me feel awkward...) or doing something else new though. I can't really go out and do anything either because now that my hours were cut, I have to save even more for the move to Pocatello so I don't end up going broke as soon as I get up there.

If I don't end up going to Pocatello, I am pretty sure I am going to move out of this place... That is what it is getting to.

Spring Break

Haven't posted for awhile so here it goes..

My spring break was last week. To start things off, I found out I scheduled the wrong week off from work (put this coming week as my time off instead of this week) last Friday. So over the next few days I had to find people to work for me. It was not as bad as I thought it would be. I only had to get one day covered (picked the new girl because she didn't have a lot of hours). Got it all sorted out on Sunday and I left that night to go see my friends in Pocatello. I didn't end up getting there until like 2 am but oh well ha. On the way up there though I started to get I sore throat. Of course I got the flu (or cold or something else...)... So I spent Monday feeling like crap, spent Tuesday feeling like I was going to freeze to death, and spent Wednesday recovering some. (I am still sort of sick but it is mainly just my sinuses)

While I was up there, I did a lot of stuff. My friend Sam only had to work one day while I was up there and the rest of my friends had all the days off that I was up there. Sam and I got hooked on playing Chess with Friends on our iPhones and finished playing co-op on Halo Anniversary. The rest of the time was spent watching movies, playing Rock Band (1 (PS3), 2(PS3), and 3(Xbox 360)), and just doing what ever we could.


The main reason (well one of two) I went up there though was to try out Dungeons and Dragons. Sam was really wanting to try it out and see how it was. He was the Game Master (basically the AI of the game). He did an awesome job at it. I died once (wasn't paying attention ha) but he let me come back. It took us a long time to finish one game. We started at like 11 pm I think and did not get done until like 3 am. Probably would have stopped sooner and continued the next day but I was leaving the next day so they would not have been able to finish as easily. Spencer did end up quitting about a half hour through the game though.. Jerk haha. We just had his character go through the game (he was our healer) like normal and then we divided up his experience points at the end and gave them to everyone else (got me to level 3). Overall it was a fun game and I hope we can play again sometime. The second reason I went up there was to give Sam his birthday present. I got him Halo Primordium. It is the second book of the Forerunner Saga.

What our game looked like. I "died" while opening the doors to
the room and the far left corner. I guess that was where the
boss was. My bad... Ha

I went to Malad on Wednesday and stayed with my family for a few days. I helped Kyle fix some electrical stuff on his truck and did a bunch of other things. I played a little of Little Big Planet (I love that game). I also did a bunch of little stuff. I had to go to work Thursday but I was still sick so I called in sick and tried to find someone to cover for me (didn't find anyone but I did not end up having to go). I left to go back to Ogden on Friday (a little late though). I ended up being ten minutes or so late for work. I thought the manager was going to kill me. I was on her bad side for awhile that night. And I smashed a pizza that night too because a two liter soda bottle fell on it (never had it happen before). She gave me a hard time for that too... After that things got better and I am on her good side again I think. Moral of the story: don't be late for work....

For the weekend I worked and just sort of sat around. I should have been doing homework but oh well. That is what Sunday nights are for right? Ha.

Decisions... (And Some Background)

I have been debating something a lot the last two to three months. I'm not happy here. There is just something that I am not fulfilling in myself here. I'm not sure what it is. Maybe it is the lack of friends? Either way I think I am going to ISU in Pocatello for a year or so. Then on to Digipen. That it the plan so far.

What is it that I need in my life? For starters, I want to see what it is like to live on my own. Right now I have no rent, no bills, and have just recently got a job. Don't get me wrong, it is nice not having bills and rent to worry about, but I just want out really. I'm tired of having nearly everything provided for me. It makes me feel like a "moocher." So the plan goes as follows:

• Get through this semester at Weber and hopefully pass
• Work the whole month of May to make enough money for a few months worth of living expenses

For the summer: 

• Either help my dad with the farm this year and spend a full summer in Malad (for maybe the last time in a long time..)
• Or move to Pocatello in June and find a job so that I can start saving up money for college and other expenses. 

After summer:

• Go for a year or so to ISU (part time (for a little))
• Either get my degree there or transfer to Digipen and get a degree in game design
• Go from there....

Right now, I want to be a game designer of some sort. when I was reading though one of my friend's blogs, they referred to the music they posted as "epic music" (and I agree 100%). When I clicked on the first one, link, I couldn't help but play a game scene that just randomly formed into my head. A few years ago, I used to have this happen all the time. Me and my friend Sam would always share these ideas back and forth. We had dreams back then of making those a reality with our own gaming company of some sort. Then I went to engineering state and saw that biological engineering looked pretty cool. So I kind of went off on that for awhile. I still like the idea (I love biology and love messing with code so messing with the DNA of cells seemed to fit right in). Then I got back into coding websites and doing them for fun and that sent me back to wanting to be a software engineer. I love being able to make and fix my own stuff. Since I am not artistic by any means, this is the only way I have to show off that ability. My friends blog only reinforced the idea even more. 

The only pitfalls to this plan are that since I have been living in Utah for almost a year, I may not be able to get in-state tuition at ISU and I will have to pay for rent and bills. I still think it is more than worth it though. My life here is school and work. At least there it would be school, work, and friends. Will it be harder? For sure. Worth it? I think so...